Yes, songs are speaking to me. To my heart. Enough said.
Yesterday, within a couple of hours, I heard David Crowder’s song “How He Loves Us” twice from different sources. It’s a very stirring song to me, and I actually wondered about hearing it twice in such a short time period. Coincidence or God Coincidence? Was He sending it to me for some reason?
Due to God’s prompting, I am re-reading Experiencing God by Henry Blackaby. Today I was shaken by this morning’s reading.
The verse was Matthew 22:37-38:
Jesus replied: “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment.”
Then the question: If you were standing before God, could you describe your relationship to Him by saying, “I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND ALL MY SOUL AND ALL MIND AND ALL MY STRENGTH?”
That cut me to the quick.
Could I? Or would I say the same as this man when asked that question in the example:
“Nobody has ever asked me that. No, I could not describe my relationship with God that way. I could say I obey Him, I serve Him, I worship Him, and I fear Him. But I cannot say that I love Him.”
My heart broke. And I had to ask myself, “Do I love God this way?”
I know it’s still hard for me sometimes to really believe that He loves me….I mean in my heart, truly and firmly and with no doubt. And that affects my trust in Him. God and I had have many discussions about that over the years.
He pursues me with His Love. He continually assures me – the needy child who seems to ask her Daddy over and over “Do You love me?” – with patience and faithfulness and…yes, LOVE.
How could I not love Him with all my heart and all my soul and all my mind and all my strength? Help me Holy Spirit to have a whole-hearted love relationship with the One who created me for that very purpose.
My prayer this morning was one of trying to surrender. I sang about it in a song yesterday at church. I’m opening my hands in a posture of submission. I’m trying. My heart is still wrestling though.
I want to surrender totally to the God who Loves me. I want my heart to be completely open and trusting and surrendered to His Will and His Love and His Healing and everything He has to give to me and everything He wants me to give. To what He’s calling me to do.
I’m still fearful of what that means. I still desire to grab control…even though I know that’s useless and futile and doesn’t mean that I actually HAVE control…..but I’m trying.
I’m trying. I’m praying that He knows my heart and is happy with my progress. With my desire. That even though I’m NOT where I want to be, I’m on the path. Help me Holy Spirit.
This old hymn came to my mind today in my quiet time as I prayed. I Surrender All. Then, as He often does, He mentioned it in a devotional I read afterwards. Yes, the devo actually mentioned the same hymn. Amen, Lord. Make it so.
- Holy Spirit Surrender (gentlegal.wordpress.com)
- Great and hidden things (davidcampbelljr.wordpress.com)
- The only thing that matters is seeking the Lord with our whole hearts (davidcampbelljr.wordpress.com)
There is a “person” who has hurt and continues to hurt someone I love.
In my flesh, I see this “person” as very far from God.
In my flesh, I see nothing redeemable due to the state of this “person’s” heart.
In my flesh, I am angry.
In my flesh, I did NOT WANT to pray for this “person” when the Holy Spirit prompted me this morning. I actually said NO!
In the Spirit, I prayed for this “person.”
In the Spirit, I turned this “person” over to the Almighty.
In the Spirit, I asked that Christ draw this “person” to Him.
In the Spirit, I will continue to pray for this “person” even though I don’t want to. Even though my flesh will continue to struggle for control, I belong to Christ. I am not my own.
“However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. But if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Him.” Romans 8:9
I’ve posted this before, but it’s become a tradition for me to listen to this great video on Good Friday….by Dr. S.M. Lockridge! And if you haven’t listened to That’s My King by Lockridge….here’s 2 for the price of 1. Both POWERFUL videos.
THIS IS THE REASON FOR THIS WEEK!
Modern day telling of the Samaritan woman in John 4.